My old life

Some of the things that I am worried about

1. I am worried that Ganesh might be badly affected by all this. Ganesh is, inspite of his problems, a nice chap and we have had a relationship going with him and I don't want to see him hurt.
2. I am worried that if 3rd Agenda is taken over by Alwyn, the place will become intolerable for a lot of people because there will be no transparency - all the ideals which keeps the people there in 3rd Agenda will fall apart. Also, I fear that there will be a lot of animosity caused because of the deviousness of some of what is planned.
3. I am worried that because of all this, I might lose Alwyn. We might lose each other and as a consequence, the one reason we came together will not be accomplished.


I am worried about all these things - but there is no one to talk to. I want to talk to someone and get guidance. God you are the only one around whom I can talk to about these things - please guide me.

God give me strength and give me wisdom. I need these right now.

Sometimes, I think I have become far too cynical for my own good. I think I need to think more optimistically from now on. I like Abrar's attitude towards these things - he continues to have a sense of optimism and that is so refreshing.

As for the issues that I am most worried about - the first would be my relationship with Seena, I am really worried about it because I think I might lose her. I don't think she expects to meet some one so far away from being good looking - I had told her that I am average looking and thats what I think..but who knows, others probably think I am ugly. I sure hope not.

God has been good to me and he has granted me everything - except good looks. I am tempted to ask "Why Lord?" but I am sure that he has a very good reason. But still...No, I will not complain.

posted by Prem @ 1:42 PM

Some of the things that I am worried about

1. I am worried that Ganesh might be badly affected by all this. Ganesh is, inspite of his problems, a nice chap and we have had a relationship going with him and I don't want to see him hurt.
2. I am worried that if 3rd Agenda is taken over by Alwyn, the place will become intolerable for a lot of people because there will be no transparency - all the ideals which keeps the people there in 3rd Agenda will fall apart. Also, I fear that there will be a lot of animosity caused because of the deviousness of some of what is planned.
3. I am worried that because of all this, I might lose Alwyn. We might lose each other and as a consequence, the one reason we came together will not be accomplished.


I am worried about all these things - but there is no one to talk to. I want to talk to someone and get guidance. God you are the only one around whom I can talk to about these things - please guide me.

God give me strength and give me wisdom. I need these right now.

Sometimes, I think I have become far too cynical for my own good. I think I need to think more optimistically from now on. I like Abrar's attitude towards these things - he continues to have a sense of optimism and that is so refreshing.

As for the issues that I am most worried about - the first would be my relationship with Seena, I am really worried about it because I think I might lose her. I don't think she expects to meet some one so far away from being good looking - I had told her that I am average looking and thats what I think..but who knows, others probably think I am ugly. I sure hope not.

God has been good to me and he has granted me everything - except good looks. I am tempted to ask "Why Lord?" but I am sure that he has a very good reason. But still...No, I will not complain.

posted by Prem @ 1:41 PM